lifestory
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i don't know where to start this
or
how to start this.
it's straight into my face.one thing i hate is when someone break my trust in them
it's not that i hate that person.
i just hate that feeling.
when it all feel like i'm torn apart and shattered into pieces.
i might be a man of steel from the outside.
but i've a heart of glass inside
it's fragile.
but it doesn't means everything gotta be this way.
i believe that you have your reasons for doing so
but i don't know why you have to?
even if you're not that particular person,
why use her identity and stuffs?
why do you have to hide?
why can't you just tell the truth?
im not someone who hang around only with cool kids
i hang around and make friends with almost everyone.
provided they themselves are sincere in being friends.
there's many questions running through my mind.
but i'm not mad.
i'm not angry.
i'm disappointed and broken.
you made me wonder if i'm being too nice to people
maybe im too soft hearted.
maybe i keep giving in,keep trusting the wrong person.
maybe i have to be stronger
maybe i should change myself.
maybe you have something against me.
but one thing i'm sure of
that i'm dont hate you for doing so.
because i believe,
everything that happen to me in my life,
always have a reason.
some can be explain
some cannot.
Karma..
i believe in that too,
maybe i used to do something to that extend
or in my previous life
idk.
but i always learn from past events
it's part of my life.
always will be.
i always forgive,
but never forget.
i guess you give me too much hints
im just naive to not take it.
from the start,
i should already know.
i thought i could read mind,
but you're better.
and right now.
i don't know how to trust you again.
you it took away..
if you're that someone
or you are another one.
i don't know even if your explanation is true.
it's just so hard to believe in that.
whatever it is,
i want to thank you for ,
letting me learn to not to trust someone easily,
all the time i used to share with "you,
the memories we had
and just everything that had happen in this virtual world.
life is reality,
you woke me up.
thank you.
to illyana farna the one who i used to know.
for illyana farna the one who i know now.
it's okay.
no matter who you're,
i'm good
still
i'll like to know who you really are.
yy,a steel man with a glass heart.