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Saturday, November 14, 2009

Hey dear fellow readers
how are you?
wait i bet there aint any.
it's better that way
so i can rant whatever i want.

life been pretty sweet to me.
school,work,friends,family & everything is going really great.
well this might be a long post cause it's been some time since i blog and i dont why tonight seems to be a wonderful night with this rainy day
listening to please dont stop the rain kinda make this night a peaceful one.

first of all
i seriously wanna try quit smoking,
i dont wanna disappoint mom.
it's not that i dont listen to you
its just that at times
i wish you could just understand me a little more.
im not like any other typical kid.
im someone you dont know.
you son, your own son,
do you even know he have tattoo?
do you know that he'd done drugs b4?
do you know what he likes?
do you know what's his dream?
i think you dont..
no one knows.
say me emo, say me ego,
i just dont know who to share
who to trust.
but mom,
i love you more then anything in my life.
i can swear.

i know i've change,
to someone who care less
who dont have initiative...
but i dont think im some big shot
im not arrogant.
if only you could take a step closer to see me
to know me
you might find this pathetic little guy.
me.
if only you could or would.

why don't you make the move
why should i?
you would ask me
why dont i make the first move
why should you?
just like hen and egg
which come first?
it'll never end.
how does it end?
give in.

im missing all the friends
im missing the love i used to have
and i used to gave
and the feeling.
im dumb not to treasure what i had.
caues i never knew it was the best.
and i dont treasure it cause i dont know that it'll be the best.
i thought there will be better one
you taught me,
to treasure every moment,
cause i'll never know that it'll be the best moment of my life.
thankyou, lovED

why be mr nice when no one appreciate?
and when mr bad gets everything you wanted
this life.
i still believe in karma.
one day, mr nice gets everything while mr bad gets nothing.

enough of those shits stuff.
back to real life.
school been killing me
can't wait for tuesday
party all night long!
ahahahah
k no la..
gonna work,
get my bic lic
get a bic
anyhow grab a girl become gf
wahaha
as if
-.-
so not me.
just gonna enjoy life.
till i really meet someone who really can teach me how to love again.
till then.

for now
what i know
let nature take it course.
putting in too much doesn't really bring you what you want.
i know if i never try , i'll never know.
but i know, even if i try, it'll never work.
cause somethings takes two hands to clap.
there's no such thing as clapping with one hand

ahhh
and i wanna meet those people i haven meet for some time already.
=)
i'll try to ring them up
but if you are one of them.
do ring me up!
cause you might have just slipped out of my mind for a moment.
juts a moment. really.
cause i hardly forget.
but i always forgive!
ahahhah
=D

smile on human!
peace.
wai.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

i don't know where to start this
or
how to start this.
it's straight into my face.

one thing i hate is when someone break my trust in them
it's not that i hate that person.
i just hate that feeling.
when it all feel like i'm torn apart and shattered into pieces.
i might be a man of steel from the outside.
but i've a heart of glass inside
it's fragile.
but it doesn't means everything gotta be this way.

i believe that you have your reasons for doing so
but i don't know why you have to?
even if you're not that particular person,
why use her identity and stuffs?
why do you have to hide?
why can't you just tell the truth?
im not someone who hang around only with cool kids
i hang around and make friends with almost everyone.
provided they themselves are sincere in being friends.
there's many questions running through my mind.
but i'm not mad.
i'm not angry.
i'm disappointed and broken.

you made me wonder if i'm being too nice to people
maybe im too soft hearted.
maybe i keep giving in,keep trusting the wrong person.
maybe i have to be stronger
maybe i should change myself.
maybe you have something against me.
but one thing i'm sure of
that i'm dont hate you for doing so.

because i believe,
everything that happen to me in my life,
always have a reason.
some can be explain
some cannot.
Karma..
i believe in that too,
maybe i used to do something to that extend
or in my previous life
idk.
but i always learn from past events
it's part of my life.
always will be.
i always forgive,
but never forget.

i guess you give me too much hints
im just naive to not take it.
from the start,
i should already know.
i thought i could read mind,
but you're better.

and right now.
i don't know how to trust you again.
you it took away..
if you're that someone
or you are another one.
i don't know even if your explanation is true.
it's just so hard to believe in that.

whatever it is,
i want to thank you for ,
letting me learn to not to trust someone easily,
all the time i used to share with "you,
the memories we had
and just everything that had happen in this virtual world.

life is reality,
you woke me up.
thank you.

to illyana farna the one who i used to know.

for illyana farna the one who i know now.
it's okay.
no matter who you're,
i'm good
still
i'll like to know who you really are.

yy,
a steel man with a glass heart.